grilled peanut butter and jelly.

oh spring break has been treating me quite nicely everyone.... really honestly has. got to see tonya within hours of coming home, as well as miss kalee beck and THEN kalee took me to see the infamous nicholas bowman, who yes..... i was extremely anxious and excited to see. did i mention anxious? knees weak, plams sweaty, heart racing type anxious. but it was good too [: i sure do miss that kid, got to see him friday too... kinda some drama happened and we kinda had to camp out in my car till six in the morning but it was fun nonetheless!! and tomorrow i'm going to go with him to church ball so we can hang out afterwards i guess. other than that... i got a TON of scrapbooking done, got to hang out with my absolutely amazingly awesome future sister in law natalie and my as amazingly awesome aunts and mother and grandma. oh how i love them.
within the last couple of weeks i have retaught myself the uselessness of jealousy because of this wonderfully amazing gal. i guess i just needed to tell someone how stupid it was to feel that way to remind myself that i needed to get over some things and grow up and just move on. which i must say thank you for. really.

also lately...  i've found out who my real friends are. and my closest friends. [: i love dallin gilbert for telling no when i'm about to make a mistake and he doesn't let me do it. dj eckman for being there for me when i need to talk about just nonsense. nick salazar for telling me i'm the illest girl in boise and making me feel better about everything in my life. shuwun ma for just knowing when i need to talk. kevin brady for knowing exactly how i feel. tonya for being there when i need to rant and tell her all the details of my life and mackenzie cabot.... the one girl who i can tell ABSOLUTELY everything to at two in the morning and not feel like i'm being judged and not feel like she thinks she's better than me. thanks guys for being there for me. really.

also.... this week i have decided to finally try grilled peanut butter and jelly. thanks to travis hackett.

just gonna focus on me.

is anyone annoyed that all my blog is about is guys? cause i am. today i was reading through some posts and it just so happened that.... my blog bugs me kinda. or at least some of it does. my blog is supposed to keep people updated on my life not only in boise but my life in general.... not just the "man in my life" aspect. although i do LOVE talking about the subject i must refrain i decided. it seriously is just annoying and yes i will add.... my love life is difficult right now. but the whole world doesn't need to know how, why and who with. so i'm just gonna focus on me... and what i am doing as an individual. and yes... i'll still share stories of what i'm up to [:

SO.... this post is about nothing really. life is pretty unevetnful. wish i could spice it up a bit BUT spring break is this next week coming up and i'm super excited for it. i can't WAIT to see my friends. i'm most of all excited for some special scrapbooking time with my mum, future sister in law, gramma, and aunties. [: something else i'm looking forward to.... seeing jeffrey griffin. because i happen to love the guy and i miss him. secondly, all my utah friends... i have a desperate need to see them. also going to see tonya lyn. because i miss her so. then end up in provo to get my brother his suit for his wedding and going to go on a date with my future husband 'brock joseph andersen' it's true ya'll.... we're gonna get married. and lastly i am going to go watch miss dana (my lovely cousin) in her mulan musical. cut elittle third grader is in the fourth grade musical. SO PROUD. [:

yes.... i have big plans for my spring break. i just hope and pray i can fit it all in. or i may just end up heart broken. oh also word to those that do actually read my blog... my mother is having foot surgery on the 4th of april to fix her nonsense. then john taylor is getting something done. and then in may i'm getting a couple foot operations done. just to get rid of some bone spurs. no worries though!!! everything going on in my family is okay and minor type stuff so don't worry about us at all [: just thought i'd share though. i personally am kinda stoked for mine cause once it's done i can finally wear heels again and not feel like cutting my feet off at the ankle.

ANYWAYS.... goodnight, it's 1:47 in the morning and i should be in bed. i've got school for pete sakes!

dear blog.

well if anyone has seen my facebook lately, i am officially single. AND it was me that decided to do that. i don't want anyone to think that cade met my family and then drove me back to boise and dumped me. no, i broke up with him. i'm not gonna go into deatials but i'll just say he was not the right one and talked about too far into the future, and talked about it too much. so i'm single... and i'm okay with that.

BUT since this blog is NOT just about my relationships i would like to share some more news. my brother.... IS ENGAGED!!!!!! and my future sister in law is absolutely amazing. she fits into our family perfectly and even mikayla likes her. :P we went wedding dress shopping with her on friday and... FOUND ONE!! her mom and my mom could be sisters too... they're crazy and say almost the exact same things, ah it's just great. and after we were leaving the bridal shop natalie asked me to be a bridesmaid, as well as mikay and i'm stoked. today she asked me what size of shoes i wear and john taylor wouldn't tell me why so...... i'm curious. but other than that... NATALIE TRANSTRUM WILL SOON BE NATALIE ESKELSEN!!! on june 24th anyway. [: can't wait!

other than that, i think i've decided  what i'm going to be doing this summer and next fall. live in idaho falls this summer and just help out with wedding stuff and hang out and then in july i'm hoping to move back to boise and find an apartment or a roommate to live with (yes, i'm considering a roommate) and then just work until the summer of 2012, then i'll start school at CWI on Boise State campus and get my associate's degree in Surgical Technology which will take three semesters. THEN i'll be working. WOOHOO!!! Just have to get through the rest of this semester. Wish me Luck!!!!!!

my marriage.

for all those who would like to know........i, klerisa m eskelsen,
refuse to get married when my age ends with "teen"

refuse to get married before i've lived on my own.

refuse to get married before i have a real job.

refuse to marry someone i am not entirely in love with.

refuse to marry someone who thinks i can't take care of myself.

refuse to marry someone who causes me more grief than happiness.

UNLESS..... i have prayed about it and know it's right.

to all those who got married against these rules and are happy,
i'm happy for you and have nothing against you whatsoever. BUT i'm just having
one of those days. i'm NOT getting married anytime soon. okay? okay. goodnight.