melancholy: noun 1. a gloomy state of mind
and THAT i must admit.... is how i'm feeling this moment.
i also looked up the word melancholy on google.
it produced THIS for me.
i sure do think she looks quite melancholy, and looks a lot like
the way i am feeling at the moment and yet....
LOOK she got ready for the day. even the smallest
effort of putting on a hat and a sweater.
she may be melancholy BUT she's quite alright.
i am feeling quite melancholy.
i had surgery on both my feet. leaving me immobile (is that a word?)
my boyfriend is also 744 miles away from me.(which adds up to 11 hours.)
i have no money. so my trip to santa cruz? cancelled.
no more visiting corey.
moving back to boise in july/early august?
four things..... and i feel like my life is ruined.
oh yes, corey, the picker upper of my emotions....
reminds me that being apart DOES suck.
but i have to think in the back of my head
that i'll see him again and waiting is gonna be hard.
but that's what people do in devoted relationships.
they go all out.
3 months apart. 9 months together.
that i can handle. and that one thing being fixed inside my head.
makes me feel that much less melancholy.
and a lot more...... chipper.
i'm a girl, things can be fixed that easily.